We all get bad days, but what if that bad day seems to be dragging on for longer than usual. When one setback leads onto to another and then another until you find yourself stressing out with no motivation and zero control of your life. All of a sudden self doubt starts to rule your world and you feel like you have to fake a smile to those around you and pretend that you’re okay. But you’re not.
Some days you just have nothing. No creativity, no inspiration and you know what, that’s perfectly okay. For some reason we feel the need to be strong all of the time, to be constantly happy. I mean, how can we be sitting here feeling sorry for ourselves when life has given us so much to be grateful for? But I think we should all be allowed to fall apart, to cry, to admit that we’re not okay. Because after all that, we can find ourselves again.
This is something that I’ve been struggling with lately. Feelings of self-doubt and overwhelm took control of my mind, mixed with guilt because how can I feel this way when I have so much to be grateful for? How can I sit here writing about being positive when I’m not in a positive frame of mind?
Life is Amazing. And Then it’s Awful
The thing about life is, sometimes is absolutely amazing and then all of a sudden, it’s awful. And then it’s amazing again. And in between the amazing and the awful it’s ordinary and mundane and routine and boring and that’s when you’re not okay. You’re not okay and you don’t understand how this has happened, because not along ago you were on top of the world. But the thing is, that’s just life and it’s okay to be not be okay sometimes.
Don’t try to resist your feelings, let them come and let them go. Just know that you’re not alone. You’re not the only one feeling lost, bored, unmotivated, uninspired, lonely or confused. However you feel, trust that it’s perfectly human to feel all of these feelings. It may not be much fun but that’s just the living, heartbreaking, amazing, awful, ordinary life that we live in. It’s a confusing place to be but smile knowing that you along for the ride.
It’s Only Temporary
When you feel this way it’s easy to forget that these feelings are only temporary. You’re not going to feel this way forever but when you’re under a dark cloud it’s hard to see your way out. You don’t think clearly and you don’t act like yourself. During the times when I’ve felt lost in a dark place I’ve often acted out of character, I’ve picked up unhealthy habits and fallen out of my regular routine.
It’s important to keep your regular, healthy routine during these times. Keep exercising, keep eating healthy, don’t cut yourself off from the world and your loved ones. If you fall out of your routine and pick up unhealthy habits you start to loose yourself in the process. This makes it that much more difficult to pull yourself out of a rut and move forward.`
You know that you have a good life, you know that you’re blessed and you’re grateful for the things you have but right now, in this moment, you’re sad, and that’s okay.
Sometimes life can just get the better of us. We get tired of things and then we get ourselves all upset. Those around us tell us not to worry and if we think too much then there’s always something to cry about. I suppose all we can do is be grateful during the amazing times, be strong during the awful and exhale during the ordinary. Because this is life and it’s okay to not be okay, but just remember that the life that your living is amazingly beautiful.
Note to Self:
- This pain will pass and when it does you will be stronger
- Stay positive when it feels like your whole world is falling apart
- It’s okay to have a meltdown just don’t pack up and live there. Cry it out and focus on where you’re heading
- A strong person isn’t the one who doesn’t cry. It’s the person who sheds a tear and gets up and fights again